Welcome to My Pity Party
October 6, 2011 § 3 Comments
When I was a kid, my worst nightmare was that I would spend my career working at Wal-Mart. (OK, that wasn’t literally my worst nightmare. My worst nightmare was that the Stay Puft Marshmallow Man would kill me in my sleep. But that Wal-Mart thing was my biggest rational fear. Just go with it.)
I grew up in a very small town with very few economic opportunities. I’ve always fancied myself relatively bright. Not Ivy League bright, but bright enough to know that I would be bored working in a checkout line. So I did well in high school, went to college, then to law school. I studied abroad. I interned at a large civil rights nonprofit in Washington, D.C. I passed the bar. And now…
I’ve been underemployed or unemployed for the past 16 months. I’m lucky, though; so far I have enough support around me to make ends meet. Also? I hate that “not homeless” is considered lucky. But let’s be honest, Sallie Mae isn’t going to let me put off paying back my $130,000 student loan debt indefinitely.
I was really inspired by the Occupy Wall Street movement. I felt really alone for a long time. Everyone I went to school with seems to be employed, and I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong. But Occupy Wall Street, and specifically the incredibly depressing Tumblr We Are the 99 Percent, have shown me that I’m not alone. I guess misery really does love company.
The stress is really starting to get to me. I’m not very good at expressing myself verbally, so I’m starting this blog. Not to wallow in my own self-pity (although that will undoubtedly be part of it), but to document my pilgrimage in vagrancy. I hope to write about my job search and economic news, but mostly I want to keep my sanity and my sense of humor. I’ve noticed myself getting more and more bitter lately, and I need to nip that in the bud.
Hopefully this will not only be a cathartic experience for me, but for you, as well. This website is still under construction, so feel free to check in periodically for updated info. Until then, good luck out there, everybody.
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